Tears of a Solitary Parent

I see You on the distant horizon at that line between sea and sky

Just can I see You, but only just. Is it You?

Above the smoke which separates land and Lord

Somewhere You are there.

You are,

I know.

I  will soon have to go, and here I ask Your time

The burning, pulsating heat weighs down and I cannot see

Through the haze of Your immanence.

 I am thirsty, I am dry, I am weak

For You, Your love, Your strength.

I weep with exhaustion before You on the sand

On my knees at my mighty task.

Why me? Tell me now ~

 This impossibility of labours

Cannot be fair; it is not right for solely one

To carry the lives of Your children.

Your Children. For they are not mine, they are Yours

My call was as their earthly guide – we agreed.

Children, children everywhere

Dancing, untamed; heedless of me, of school

Of discipline and of You.

Where are You? My spirit is waning

I cannot continue alone. I am tired.

I am tired. I am tired.

I feel old.

Is this what You want for me?

I ask nothing except respite. Let me rest

Through your compassion and mercy.

Let me feel You, know Your presence.

Acknowledge me.

Fill me with Your grace and mightiness that

I may do Your work for Your children.

Our children.

Please, let me rest. Take them from me for a while,

Allow me to sleep in Your beloved ams;

Play with them, read the stories, and sing:

And let them please be safe while I sleep.

Deeply drinking in the night’s peace.

Hold them as Your own, that which they are

While I dream

Just, just for a while.



© Selima Gurtler


Selima Gurtler is a spiritual writer, philosopher, poet and Jnana yogi.

Her modern teachings to Self-Realization and Liberation are uniquely flavoured through the perceptive eyes of her Indian and European heritage.

Free copies of her books are available for download here:  https://www.emwpeace.org/publications/

His Holiness the Dalai Lama and His Grace Archbishop Desmond Tutu are patrons of her work.


Title Image: Summer Study 2019 © Selima Gurtler



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